ouch

mood: a wee tired
listening to: kids playing baseball in the living room
last read: previous blog entry

so, i have gall stones. i am greatly frustrated by this. i would be at peace with it if i had not just worked my butt off to lose 50 pounds, thus leading to said stones. i know the lighter me is still better off, but it is greatly discouraging to do something in the name of "health" only to be subject to $240 in tests, likely leading to a $700 surgery. frustrating.

i had hoped i would be that special case who could beat the odds and take care of this with some medication. but i am now on day 7 of constant pain and my hope has been greatly diminished. it is exhausting. but it gives me new compassion for the infirmed. and that's something you can never have enough of, compassion.

my last rant will be about my hair-- it's falling out=(. i am hoping it's linked somehow to my gb issues so that it will be resolved, but im just not sure. i have lost about half my hair. my ponytail is now what was formerly one of my pigtails. a friend went through this a year ago, and i was sympathetic. but now, going through it myself, i realize i was not nearly sympathetic enough. in our superficial, image conscious society, THIS IS TRAGGIC! (caps, i know. it is that important) i should have shown up on her doorstep with some vitamin B12 or something. sorry friend.