surgery

mood: not so chipper
listening to: washing machine and dryer
last read: jacques torres secret chocolate chip cookie recipe (omg, yum!)

so, after a few weeks of debating and paining, i decided to have my gall bladder removed. it is the "safest" course of treatment, although i feel like a whip and a failure for not gritting my teeth and bearing the pain. i feel like a burden on my family, as it will take three other adults to compensate for my time out. i know in my heart that these feelings are foolish and not shared by anyone involved, but that's how i feel nonetheless.

im weirded out by the thought of some stranger being inside my body. i know im weird. this is just a strange situation for me. but, i am sure i will be totally unweirded out and at peace with it once i no longer have the feeling of someone kicking me in the side. so, i will proceed to just get over it.

on an even less chipper note, a good friend is moving an ocean away--actually two good friends, but one sooner than the other. she is the kind of close friend who does not require a lot of maintenance, and you can pick right back up where you left off no matter how much time has gone by between visits. i love that she is so kind, caring, thoughtful, "northern," has a great heart for the Lord and grounded at the same time. probably most of all, i love that her two little boys are very similar to mine, so i do not need to continually explain away their boyness. she will be missed, but i definitely look forward to visiting her!